Ruthlessly honest and viscerally beautiful. The book I wish I had read as a medical student.' Emma Espiner The world of surgery is strange, messy and intense. From a man presenting with fishhooks in his stomach to being punched in the face by a patient, it's all in a mad day's work for a female general surgeon. Even with emergency operations in the wee hours and constantly being mistaken for a nurse, there are still moments of laughter and tenderness amid the chaos. When Ineke's parents in Samoa fall ill, she becomes torn between her roles as a surgeon, a daughter and a single working mother, leading her to ask: are the sacrifices of a life in scrubs worth it? This is an extraordinary memoir from inside the operating room about the heart it takes to survive.